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其实我并非不思念你,只是忘了思念所带来的冲击而已,就像我并非不呼吸,只是忘了一直在呼吸而已...
昏暗的灯光下读着整页只有这42个熟悉字体的远方的思念, 我又开始了沦陷...
Posted on February 20, 2010 at 10:33pm —
喜欢站在相机背后,捕捉别人快乐的瞬间,“每一张笑脸的背后,都有一个咬紧牙关的灵魂”。每一个人,都有自己的悲喜故事,可是,没有听众的故 事,多半便失去了流传下去的途径。古代的中国有神话和传说。现在听说的,更多的是一个人的成功史,再也没有美丽、凄凉的爱情传说。
当年龄迈过了二十五,疯狂地奔向三十而去,真真切切的感受到时间的不可遏制。你不能大喝一声“你给我站住”,他就停在那里等了。看了一个视频短 片,一个去拾烟斗的老人,经过的每一个房间,都盛装着历历在目的回忆。周围是被水完全淹没的一切。每次水面上涨,人们就往屋子上加砌一层住所。每次
… ContinuePosted on February 19, 2010 at 3:00pm —
大年三十。吃过年夜饭,还早,还是一如既往的窝在被窝,打算就这样度过狼狈牛年的最后一个晚上。群里闲聊,台球。那就从被窝起来。出门。衣服穿很 少,其实主要是天气很冷。外面是空无一人的街道。台球店还是开着的,很好,不虚此行。乘兴而至,尽兴而归。回家,和妹妹看仙剑三,很幼稚,很喜欢,很感
动,暗暗想好,我要从一看起,最后把仙剑都看完。睡觉已经到凌晨两点。
初一听说是情人节,没有情人,生活还是要继续,从凌晨两点睡到下午四点,中间省略了早饭和午饭。最后把晚饭也省略了。好友约麻将。说走就走。中途遇到老妈阻拦,我去的义无反顾。总觉得憋着一口气,却不知道在发泄什么。为什么要跟妈妈过不去?我明白自己其
… ContinuePosted on February 19, 2010 at 3:00pm — 1 Comment
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Young but experienced, my psychological tricks can trap anybody hahah.
How are you doing?
Dubai is boring – end of story, and the work interferes with comment-writing time – let's talk about something else – like my return to SZ in a week.
All any of us is concerned about is happiness – you just need a broad enough definition of happiness to encompass those things you can do for others as well as those things you do for yourself. The trips around China are great, and I'm planning many more, but they are made far better by the people I do them with. Just seeing the sights is fine, and taking lovely photographs is fine, but sharing the experience with friends – real friends – is the best of all.
Did I use the mountains and valleys [better abysses] analogy with you before? Which is better – to live your life on a constant plateau of moderate contentment or to reach the heights, knowing that almost certainly you're going to fall off of a cliff sometime soon. Most people I've met go for the plateau, particularly traditional Chinese girls. As long as they have a stable relationship and enough money to live they call themselves happy. They don't demand love for themselves or expect to give it in return – they can never commit themselves enough to know the heights. A girl I know was in despair with her fiancée one day, but quite happy [in her terms] the next day because she'd bought herself three pieces of clothing. That's not despair if it can be fixed so easily – that's not love if such a small thing can regain it.
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I think that people who are completely sane don't get the best out of their lives. I have been too controlled in my life for too long – Byron was described as "mad bad and dangerous to know" - who wouldn't envy his life? Those who want contentment I suppose. Carry on as you are and if you're too much for your psychiatrist then try me.
Keep reading and thinking about what you've read. There's wisdom in those books, but the hard part is to decide which parts apply to you.
I'm back in SZ in a week and will go down to Bangkok for a holiday trip for a few days, then back to the UK via bloody Dubai after the New Year. I hope that we can find time to meet somewhere.
Mike
No, it's only 9:15pm - I'm in Dubai.
Welcome back - Mike
Given up on me? or the site in general?
Mike
NIce to see your revised message - now get back to commenting.
Mike
There's no problem with late replies - talk when you want to.
I am doing things right now that I have to do to live the rest of my life without going insane. I guess that boredom is part of my problem too, and that's induced by trying to live a static life in England. At least you have friends to be with and seem to be able to earn enough to survive. That ccombined with your intellectual efforts can make you happy enough for a while, but maybe you will need more in your life soon.
I hope that you have your good weather, but the forecast on SZStuff doesn't look great. I can sweat in any weather - but then I'm English.
Mike
PS - when you have time - get back to some of the topics in my previous comment - unless you're bored with those.
Part 1
The amount I write depends on how much time I have and how I’m feeling. I don’t run out of things to say very often [at all?] – I can remember several evenings in SZ when I’ve been with other people, alone or in groups, and been the only one talking. At the moment I have a cold and a fever so I’m not feeling too much like writing. Guangdong is supposed to be amongst the least healthy places in the World, but I’ve had one stomach upset in the last six years – no flus of any description. I guess that I am out of touch with English germs.
I think that you’ll have trouble staying mute with me. My life is colourful and as exciting as I can make it, but it is clearly restrained by my own self-image and others refusal to accept my plans. My trips within China have been great – largely thanks to Dan, and I’m planning as many as possible. I wouldn’t call it jolly at all – although I can fake that bit if I want to. I don’t feel as a 63 year old guy is supposed to feel about life – just wanting peace and quiet – that’s what I have in the UK and it has driven me crazy if I get too much of it. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to continue living as I am, because at some point my body will rebel, but till then I’ll spend as much time with attractive young people as they’ll allow me. The photos are supposed to attract attention and they work, so I meet people that way.
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