As we did not have electric power in my working area until 19:00 yesterday, we cancelled the first period of classes. Then I went with my colleague to hike in Lichi Park and do some shopping for couples of hours.
Walking on the street, observing the skyscrapers, breathing the air, I felt alone and sad all of a sudden among my excited colleagues. Seriously, there was some tear dropping out of my eyes until Joyce and Sarah noticed my sadness and tried to make me feel better.
Walking in Lichi Park, I was thinking of sb; Window shopping in KK mall, I was still thinking of sb, thinking of family, work and future. Well, the feeling was so complexed. I told Joyce and Sarah that it happened to me couples of times before but could be the first time in Shenzhen. Oh well, I have been such an outsider for my whole life. Yet, I rarely feel bad about being an outsider. Instead, being someone different is great!(Chinese culture does not teach us about being differnt is good; I always want my students to be brave to voice what's in their mind and be differnt)
After the foreign teaching class, I did share this feeling with Steve, he told me he felt very excited but yes, he did feel like going back to the US and experienced there...
I do know cold weather always deepens people's feelings. I will try to keep my spirts up. Just hanging out with my colleagues,killing time by this way makes me feel like it is a good-for-nothing day!
Cheers! We were born alone. Keeping opening up to the world, experiencing and exploring your life! And stay different!