Yeah, I'm back..... all good Shenzhen!
Been busy...and I mean work.... but I always wonder bout that.
Busy~ expression so overused! Like I would say I'm busy If I didn't want to talk to someone, to see someone, basically an avoidance tatic which kinda work, most of the time.
But hey, the word may be overused but it is usefull, like when you don't wanna talk to that person who just is so annoyingly fake that it's like that sound of scraping nail on a board feeling~ that one who goes out saying" sooo how are you? "in that overly sweet voice.... yeah.... just bitchin about it! just arghhhhh...... how do you cope with it? you can't just go out and say why don't you get lost? or annoy someone else.... like vanish?.... yeah so I end up with.... I'm busy.
and guess what... they actually do-not--disappear!
yeah....they end up.... suggesting stuff to help you out!!!!! which drives me nuts,, but since my parents pounded in some social manners in me.... I had to be civilized.....answered in a nice voice( picture holding a balloon that you know will blow up in a minute).... so nice ... thanks! NOT~( said in my mind)... for a fact words words that we keep at the back of our teeth, holding it all in!
now, you may be asking... what is it with you... dont you like nice people? so rare in shenzhen, you know...
I know... I work with some not so nice people.....but we get along just fine.... cause I can ignore them.... yes, I ignore people the ones who talks like every other word should be an expletive to make what is said more I'm-too-coool... sometimes I end up with a question, don't they know any other word? just saying...
back to the stuff that's bothering me.... well the thing is... this I'm-too-nice-to-be-real person is kind of a sucker... you know like that vampire.... draws out everything.... until you're deader than that door knob! I was fooled once... so I know.... I got sucked in too!
But I got it before I was drawn and quartered! Yeah ... got to see it to believe it... The thing is.... its not bothering this person that you know..... its like so now you know... then ? I'm still gonna be soo-nice-and-squeaky.. and I'm gonna be way nicer to you!!!!
which will end up with me being a bitch if I bad mouth, right? the way the world works baby!
I couldn't say it out loud ya know.... so I end up blogging bout it..... Friday night ahhhh..........Nice-nice just left me a message wishing me well..... and all I could think of is this....
Going for a root canal drill was a way better experience than this!
The pain and discomfort of it was gonna end!
But why ohhh why .... does this person end up in my universe.....
to strengthen me?
I hope so.....I will find the will.... to exercise my patience!