"I have nothing; nothing to lose."
Otherwise, it means you have got something but lost something else.
Or you are having something and losing something.
Or you are going to have something but to lose something else.
God have made the universe perfect but made us not completed.
God provides the source but not all of us know how to use.
Many frontiers have open up a great field and died without seeing its development.
Many offspring either continue to sxpand the land or unexpectedly, ruin it.
"How is the world now?"
"How are you doing now ?"
Have you held something tight in your heart ?
Are you holding something on your hand now ?
What is it ?
What are you going to do with it ?
How are you going to make the most of it ?
For me, I am kinda "naked" on the beach with sunset on the horizon.
My hands are empty.
My bed in a dorm is belonged to others.
My banking card is going empty soon -AGAIN.
I can't drive even can't ride a bike on the street. Each time when I tried to face to the other riders coming to me, I fell off to the Roadside.
What's wrong ?
Even the bike was not mine. How it could happen ?
Oh, I could ride it and make circles in the park. Remember ?
That's the memories I have in my mind now.
Ah! Damn right. I just bough a laptop.
But I am "blind" to use it. The most thing I have done with it is to sign in on SZS and watched a DVD Artist.
I just tried to watch 2 more DVDs this week. But damn, it failed. Damn Idiot !
What else have I got ? Let me see...
Some books I have bought and some given as a gift by friends.
Oh,right. And a Bible sent by a penpal from Australia. A movie magazine I have finally finished reading last night was given by a "pervert writer".
And a hand-writing unfinished book by my own and a black diary to keep some happy and sad moments and some inspirations.
Anything else? Yeah, a photo album to reflect myself with some different desires. I used to see my own eyes thru the album.
The others I have may be Lady's stuff like clothes,shoes,hats,sunglasses,earings,etc.
Oh, don't forget a purple tower I am still using and a ZARA scarf supposed to be used in winter , appeared to make me smiles and tears...
And a lovely red wool scarf made in Guangxi given by my best girl friend in SZ.
The rest can be regarded as "cheap , plastic and pieces of crap".
Seen above, except my "naked" body, I still have such many things.
How to make the best use of them ? Think about it...Twice..
So I still got some "material" things to lose as I have now...
What about my "naked" body with pure blood ?
I can make the most of my eyes even if I am short-sight.
I can make the most of my nose if necessary.
I cannot make the most of my mouth as weak stomache--too bad...
The other parts like my hands and my feet can be flexible to be used. No big problem.
The part of "The Centre Of World" may be the most vital part as I am young and passionate and "day dreaming with nightmares".
Unfortunately, I am unable to make the most of it by my own.
Hopefully, the "right" one will give it a big strength till time for "Doom And Gloom".
Anyway, I am going to have something new and keep the memories of the past.
Just make the most of what I've got as much as possible.
Now "Martinie Time?" or time for your shows ?
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